Worship = Amazing

Its hard to put into words what worshipping a living God truly means until you experience it. You know the old saying...when you give yourself to others you feel good. Well that is what I feel when I worship God. Today was amazing, trusting in myself that it doesn't matter what others think about how we worship, just giving it to God and it will all work out. Today there were two sopranos. We had to sing a part just us two. I think 2-3 years ago I would have been so nervous but God has brought me to a place to be comfortable with who I am. We did it, and sung out. I heard my voice across the church and what an exhilaration knowing that not only am I comfortable singing outward and trusting my voice, but that I am comfortable with myself. I came home and looked in the mirror and loved what I saw. I truly feel like I am a beautiful person. Last night I slept beautifully. I am happy to get up in the morning. This is what happens when we trust our lives over to Jesus and He can turn our lives around. I am truly amazed.

Things are good

I have a lot to be thankful for. I have a job - check. I have health insurance - check. I have parents - check. I have a house over my head and food to eat - check. God is really putting me in check and I don't want to complain anymore. I have all that I need and more. It was a long road but I'm glad where I'm at right now in life, I'm just taking it all in and appreciating it. I do not need Thanksgiving to know what I am appreciative for.

This leads me to work. These people are so poor and I have so much. How does this happen? This is a question I ask God every day. I think it boils down to that we are human and we are far form perfect. God is perfect and we make mistakes. People commit bad acts against each other and leads to prejudice and mistreatment.

How can we change this? Pray and treat everyone the same. Be joyful before the Lord and love everyone. Obviously we will make mistakes and not be happy all the time. But we can try our best. I know that we all have our lives where something may go wrong. A family member might treat us wrong and that will affect how we live to this day. Parents may do us wrong and that is how we will treat others. But we have to forgive our parents to really move on with life.

God is good and I feel like I'm really moving on from the past. There is a lot to be hopeful for and I'm praying for real change in my life.